Today I did my first open water training. Don’t expect too much..
As you may or may not have read, I have an irrational fear of swimming in open water (that includes tiny rivers or lakes like de Angstel or het Abcoudermeer) so I didn’t want to do this training alone.
My dad came with me to film and support me. About 500 metres from our house there’s a tiny river called de Angstel which flows all to the next village Abcoude where there’s a lake, het Abcoudermeer, where my old club, de Meerkoeten, was situated.
I very excitedly made the video before swimming, very slowly of course to procrastinate actually going into the water. But I did eventually jump off the cute little bridge into the water and swam.
I stopped many times because I was too afraid to keep my head underwater. The greatest part I swam breaststroke instead of front crawl. My dad had the idea to set goals. ‘Come on, at least till that next boat’ He would say over and over again until we finally reached café/restaurant de Punt (900 metres further down the stream). I hadn’t really expected to reach it so I was incredibly proud of myself. 🙂
The thing is: I have to continually convince myself there are no monster in the water out to get me. It is so extremely terrifying to have the feeling that something horrible is lurking and patiently waiting for the right moment to strike. I sort of feel their presence around me and it takes an enormous amount of willpower to continue and to try to ignore that fear. Of course, logically, I know it doesn’t make sense but it’s hard to convince your body of that.
So naturally I was extremely happy with myself and we celebrated by getting a drink at the restaurant. I may not have progressed much distance wise but I made an incredible first step in overcoming my fear!
Click here to watch a video of this first step.
I am a nineteen-year-old girl from Baambrugge, a tiny village near Amsterdam, with big ambitions. I like to set big goals for myself, I like to explore my own boundaries and see if I can expand them.